Tuesday, February 07, 2006

[[* BLUE BABY *]]

second day ko sa OR.. exciting pero nakakatakot.. minsan kasi masungit yung mga doctors even nurses nga eh.. eh first time namin.. "EMERGENCY CS" sabi ng nurse galing DR.. ang case vehicular accident.. kawawa naman.. pagkatapos ng caesarian din.. hinila na namin ang stretcher paloob ng OR II..

hindi ko nakuha ang major operation.. si bridgitte muna medyo kabado pa eh.. and besides i'm still not familiar with the instruments.. maraming tao sa room.. may 6 na part ng operation, 2 JI sa gilid ko, 1 anesthesiologist at 7 medical interns pa.. ng hinila ng doctor ang baby.. hindi siya umiiyak.. so hindi siya humihinga.. the nurse tapped his feet.. he didn't cry.. the doctor shook him still there's no reaction.. wala lang.. teary-eyed na ako kanina actually.. parang lahat na except the ones performing the operation were alarmed.. talagang lahat awang-awa sa bata.. sobrang muntikan na akong ma-trauma.. nakita ko blue na yung paa ng baby then i prayed.. sobarng nagdasal ako for him.. parang hindi ko kaya na mamatayan ng patient.. lalo na baby pa.. they had to do CPR just revive him.. i was thinking pa nga kung paano nila ieexplain sa mommy when she wakes up diba..

buti nalang buhay siya.. yun nga lang alam natin na may problem na siya.. ang weak din kasi ng cry niya.. eh the louder the better.. it will tell you kasi na open yung lungs mo.. and it will close your ductus arteriosus if ever there's a contact to air.. feeling ko hidni ako makakatulog if ever namatay siya.. but i realized one thing.. sobrang ang hirap pala ng work ng mga doctors and nurses.. gagawin mo lahat para lang mabuhay yung patients.. at nakakapagod siya ha.. nakatayo magdamag.. tapos kailangan i-maintain yung sterility ng place or kahit sa sayo.. or else.. baka palabasin ka.. aba! baka hindi mo pa nakuha yung case.. kaya iwasan mo ang nurse o kaya doctor na magsasabi sayo ng "SCRUB OUT"!

[[*. YoUr dReAm GurL .*]] @ 7:09 PM



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