Sunday, December 28, 2008
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she hoped.. *]]
"I think it's better if we part ways", he said. BANG! Her world stopped from the moment she heard those words. Even if he delivered it in a gentle way, those words smashed her heart. It killed her softly. Tears began falling from her left eye. People say that when tears fall from the right eye means they are tears of joy and from the left means you're deeply hurt, she explained. Point taken. She never saw it coming.
She remembered that day when she prepared a mushy gesture for their monthsary. She bought him a cake with a note "I MISS YOU" inside. She walked as fast as she could to get to him. And every step she took, the smile her face widened. She was very happy to see him that day. She wrote her sweet words in pieces of paper for him to read. She even asked him to stay. She got it all ready except for one thing. That thing was how to face rejection. Rejection was one of the painful things on earth, it was a fact. Up to the end, she hoped he wouldn't find that strength to leave her in the cold. Sadly, he got himself prepared too. He was firm in his decison to let it all go.
She cried all the time when she was with him. She couldn't help it. Her chest tighten that she couldn't breathe anymore. She turned pale and cold. It was undeniably one of the saddest moments of her life. As they bid their last goodbyes, he gave her a letter. It was dated the night before. It was the first letter he ever wrote. And it was also the last letter she ever recieved. It was then, the saddest letter she ever read.
What really hurts? Love was still there. But he chose to gave her up. He didn't want her hanging but the truth was he did left her hanging. What about all the things he said. That he would strive hard to keep their relationshp standing. All of those turned into lies. She believed in him.
It was hard for her to move on because she found forever in him. Even if she knew he wasn't the only guy on the planet. She wanted him. Only him. She hoped she gave him enough time to miss her and realize that it was not the best solution. She hoped she was able to gather that same strength like he had to help her pull through. She hoped he would always think of the good times, maybe in that way he might change his mind. She hoped he would come back.
[[*. YoUr dReAm GurL .*]] @
11:46 AM
lala.
24.
music-lover.
slightly vain.
crazy.
plays guitar.
sporty.
spontaneous.
sassy.
frustrated singer.
thinks deep.
cheerdancer.
loves surprises.
believes in destiny.
weirda.
- sNaPsHoTs -
"We know we're inlove when we can't fall asleep 'cause REALITY is finally better than
our DREAMS."
*._ThoUghTs/LyriCs_.*