Monday, March 09, 2009

[[* What does your birthday predict about you? *]]

Your Birthday Predicts You're Sensitive
Ever since you were born, you've always been able to cooperate.
You enjoy supporting and being inspired by others. You appreciate the dynamic of a group.

Getting along with others is essential to you. You are both fair and well mannered.
You are very intuitive and easily effected by other people. Sometimes you are too delicate.
What Does Your Birthday Predict About You?


[[*. YoUr dReAm GurL .*]] @ 10:46 AM

[[* How Observant Are You? *]]

Your Observation Skills Get A C-
You tend to notice the big things in life...
But the details aren't exactly your forte
How Observant Are You?


[[*. YoUr dReAm GurL .*]] @ 10:28 AM


Wednesday, January 14, 2009

[[* When It Rains *]]

And when it rains
On this side of town it touches, everything
Just say it again and mean it
We don't miss a thing
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh, oh, I need the ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

And when it rains
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you
From everything
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
And oh, oh, I need the ending
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?

Take your time
Take my time

Take these chances to turn it around (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around (take my...)
Just turn it around

Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh, oh I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

You can take your time, take my time




When It Rains - Paramore
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[[*. YoUr dReAm GurL .*]] @ 8:20 AM


Sunday, December 28, 2008

[[* she hoped.. *]]

"I think it's better if we part ways", he said. BANG! Her world stopped from the moment she heard those words. Even if he delivered it in a gentle way, those words smashed her heart. It killed her softly. Tears began falling from her left eye. People say that when tears fall from the right eye means they are tears of joy and from the left means you're deeply hurt, she explained. Point taken. She never saw it coming.

She remembered that day when she prepared a mushy gesture for their monthsary. She bought him a cake with a note "I MISS YOU" inside. She walked as fast as she could to get to him. And every step she took, the smile her face widened. She was very happy to see him that day. She wrote her sweet words in pieces of paper for him to read. She even asked him to stay. She got it all ready except for one thing. That thing was how to face rejection. Rejection was one of the painful things on earth, it was a fact. Up to the end, she hoped he wouldn't find that strength to leave her in the cold. Sadly, he got himself prepared too. He was firm in his decison to let it all go.

She cried all the time when she was with him. She couldn't help it. Her chest tighten that she couldn't breathe anymore. She turned pale and cold. It was undeniably one of the saddest moments of her life. As they bid their last goodbyes, he gave her a letter. It was dated the night before. It was the first letter he ever wrote. And it was also the last letter she ever recieved. It was then, the saddest letter she ever read.

What really hurts? Love was still there. But he chose to gave her up. He didn't want her hanging but the truth was he did left her hanging. What about all the things he said. That he would strive hard to keep their relationshp standing. All of those turned into lies. She believed in him.

It was hard for her to move on because she found forever in him. Even if she knew he wasn't the only guy on the planet. She wanted him. Only him. She hoped she gave him enough time to miss her and realize that it was not the best solution. She hoped she was able to gather that same strength like he had to help her pull through. She hoped he would always think of the good times, maybe in that way he might change his mind. She hoped he would come back.






[[*. YoUr dReAm GurL .*]] @ 11:46 AM


Thursday, December 11, 2008

[[* She wished... *]]

** She would always lie to bed with a dying heart. Until her very last breath, she loved him. She never regret loving him even if it was the one thing that killed her.

How she wished he knew what she really felt. She was not able to see him nor talk to him. It was very hard for her. She was left hanging. She remembered how he changed her point of views in life. How he showed real love by just looking into her eyes. She thought their relationship was ideal - close to perfect. But one day came, BOOM! it was like a nuclear bomb that hit her. Everything changed just one blink of an eye. Or maybe she became to insensitive, she barely seeing it coming. She kept on asking herself what went wrong. He was so cold all of sudden. She would cry every night just to get her eyes tired so she could sleep. So that on the next day she would have the energy to pretend again. She would laugh a million times during the day and cry as much during her lonely times at night. It became her new routine.

She thought just by loving him unconditionally everything will be fine. It turned out what she gave was not enough to keep them working. The thing about her was, she loved too much and she understood him too little. She blamed herself for losing one of the most important persons in her life. Yes, until her very last breath, she blamed herself.

She remembered how she was two years ago. She almost had the same situation. She gave her all but her ex left her. She was then afraid falling in love again. But when he came and saved her, he also proved that he was different from all the others. The sad part was he helped her getting off from her misery and then, after awhile, he started another sad ending.

How she wished he knew how she felt. Each fight they had, there was something in her heart that was continuously pricking. He did not know that with just one kiss, that pain would fade away. Then she wished she was able to kiss him more so that she would never have to feel the pain. She was devastated when he left her. That she wished she could turn back time and skip all the sad moments they had.

She missed him so much. She missed how they were before. She missed everything about him. She missed him because he was so far away. She was sorry for not being the perfect girl for him. For not being able to give what he needed. For not being the girl of his dreams. But believe, she tried to be that girl who would stick with him until the very end. How she wished he was able to hear what her broken heart is trying to say. How much she wanted for him to come back. She was waiting for him to come back.

He used to enumerate all the reasons why he loved the girl. She did have a lot of reasons too. The thing was she never had a chance to tell him.

* He was the only person that could handle her mood swings.
* He could make her heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
* With him, she found contentment.
* With him, she was able to be herself.
* She loved his kindness.
* She loved his generosity to the needy.
* She loved him for being God-fearing.
* For taking care of her so much.
* For understanding her always. And more.

It was too late for her. She never had the chance because she never had the right words to tell him. Expressing herself was her problem actually. In some cases, instead of thinking the brighter side, she would hold her negative emotions about it. She was unaware of the wrong things she did in the past.

Everything were so different now. The weather was cold. Her heart was cold and empty. How could she be happy if half of her life was lost? And she ever wondered, was there a chance he might be missing her? Was he like her that could no longer sleep at night? Would he cry knowing he could lose her? She was clueless. She had no idea at all. And his answers were unknown. But there was one thing she was sure about him. She loved him the best way she knows. She wouldn't deny that she was truly and madly inlove with him. That fact still stood strong.

She wished she was able to see him. If that would happen, first thing she would do was to hug him tight so that he would feel how much she missed him. She wished that up to the very last corner of his mind, he would realize that they were destined to be. That God made him for her. She wished he was able to gather all his thoughts and say that he still loved her beyond imperfections.

She wished and waited. She wished. Endlessly.



[[*. YoUr dReAm GurL .*]] @ 9:20 AM




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Honestly, what will become of me Don't like reality It's way too clear to me But really life is dandy We are what we don't see Miss everything daydreaming Flames to dust Lovers to friends Why do all good things come to an end Come to an end Come to an Why do all good things come to an end Traveling, I only stop at exits Wondering if I'll stay-tay Young and restless Living this way I stress less I want to pull away when the dream dies The pain sets in and I don't cry I only feel gravity and I wonder why Flames to dust Lovers to friends Why do all good things come to an end Come to an end Come to an Why do all good things come to an end And the dogs were whistling a new tune Barking at the new moon Hoping it would come soon So that they could die... And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day Til the feeling went away And the sky was falling and the clouds were dropping And the rainfall forgot how to bring salvation The dogs were barking at the new moon Whistling a new tune hoping it would come soon So that they could die